Saturday, August 13, 2011

Fear Not

The other night when I was tucking my daughter in, she asked, "Mommy, are you scared because you have cancer?". I said, "No, honey. You know why? Because I know God has my back". She smiled the sweetest smile.

Quote for today:
"I think what I most didn't want to hear was other peoples' fears. I wasn't prisoner of my own fears, and I didn't want to have to take on anyone else's." ~ W.T., lung cancer survivor, from Help Me Live: 20 Things People With Cancer Want You To Know 

I am not scared of this cancer. I am enough. ~ Gwen

Isaiah 41:13
For I am the Lord your God
who takes hold of your right hand
and says to you, Do not fear;
I will help you.

It is eerily evident that the Holy Spirit is active in life. This is what allows me to completely trust that who is holding my hand is bigger than all of us. ~Gwen 

Thursday, August 11, 2011

Day I

Hi, my name is Gwen. I am 39 years old, and I have breast cancer.

I just found out that I have breast cancer. Specifically, invasive ductal carcinoma. When the doctor was explaining the options, including his explanation of reconstructive surgery, what immediately came to mind was Austin Power's Fembots.












Thus the name for my blog. I anticipate having my own version of these Fembot cannons through this.

I have a strong history of breast cancer in my family, so I always suspected I could get breast cancer someday. I am not surprised. I wonder if I am still kind of numb. It hit me today that maybe I feel the way I do is because I am sort of thinking...  _I_ don't have cancer, my breast does.

I have three reason for creating this blog: 
  1. I need this release.
  2. It is a place I can share with everyone.
  3. Someone may learn something which helps them or someone they care about. 

Quotes for today:
"I loved it when friends resisted the urge to say something 'wise' to fill the silence. Sometimes the wisest words are those that remain unspoken." ~ L.C., lung cancer survivor, from Help Me Live: 20 Things People With Cancer Want You To Know 

You don't have to say anything; just being here is enough. ~ Gwen 


Isaiah 53: 7
He was oppressed and afflicted,
   yet he did not open his mouth;
he was led like a lamb to the slaughter,
   and as a sheep before its shearers is silent,
   so he did not open his mouth.


I have a huge trust in God to care for me. I am okay. I will be okay. ~ Gwen